Boy, is this overdue.....just isn't enough of my brain to go around.
I must be too much for too many and that leaves little for me...and I really hate to complain. It just isn't who I am. So I say that this--the following-- isn't complaining....just venting.
The end of August is here with September within days and the world shifts for us all, especially those of us with kids. Each school year heralds large changes. It's a whole new grade, a whole new school or a whole new state of being.
This year was a truly large one for our family. Having four kids, something "big" tends to happen weekly but this year all of our lives shifted.
Our eldest figured out how to go back to college after having left it 2 years ago and wandered around aimlessly in our backyard--we had built him an apartment out of the unused pole barn. He even made the Dean's list and applied to a four year college on his own and got in. Now if he learns how to open his mail in a timely fashion and gets his bills paid, my job may be done here!!
Child number 2--my daughter, Noelle. Starting up her Junior year, having been on the Dean's list at RPI (I tell you this since it is a REALLY, REALLY hard school and I'd have dropped out after week 2) and she has taken on postitions of authority and responsibility at her sorority. She calls me to complain about how irresponsible and idiotic people can be and "this is simple stuff MOM"! ..."I mean, how freaking hard IS IT to put the sponge on the shelf after using it or better yet, how hard is it to wash your own damn dishes". I listen happily with my palm glued over my mouth so she can't hear me laughing my ass off. "Yes" I eeck out without chortling "I can understand just how aggravating that is!"---Now when she is home, she actually locates the dishwasher rather than my doing it for her. And she is less likely to ask me "why are you freaking out?"
Child number 3--Our Drew. He graduated from HS this past May. We informed him he had to get a job. He said he did and yet never went there--ever. June came and went...no job and no work for us either. 'What do you plan on doing' we asked him over and over. He said he had a plan......I tried to get him scheduled for college classes and he took a test and never returned. But he still had a plan. He decided he would head south--with his best friend--to live with his mother for awhile, save enough money and move out with said best friend. They have a plan....I told them both I hoped they found whatever it was they were looking for.....they said it was a new state of being....I will keep you posted on what that will become.
Child number 4--the Cam Man. Soccer has begun and he is another inch taller. 6'4"??? I just know my neck cracks when I go to kiss his disturbingly furry face....it isn't much but he has a moustache!! Babies do not have moustaches.... As I folded his laundry which I rarely do anymore, thankfully, I had the cold realization that next year at this point in time, he will be having a major life change--as will I. I dont want to take him off to college. I want to know he is in his bed at night. Safe. I have to start organizing his college applications very soon. I don't want to. I will be all alone next year at this moment. I don't want to be.
Maybe some more animals would help......
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Sarah versus Chaos---an explanation for Men
I think I figured out something rather monumental today. And this is how it happened..... In order to understand what Sarah Palin did by stepping down as Govenor, I decided to read her Facebook page. In it she wrote a very simple and understandable explanation for her decisions minus the actual blow by blow facts. Those would come later she told us all. First she had to finish a few more weeks in office and then she was going to address the countries problems.
Now, this morning I listened to the different TV reports of what and why they thought she was going to step down. Every person had a different take on what she was doing. And they were all men. My favorite part--and this is where the light went on for me--was the male reporter who said he read her Facebook note to her supporters and the country. He said it didn't make sense that she would "quit" her job to answer to a higher calling. He said she didn't give any real answers....but yes, she did. But she didn't draw a picture. She said it the female way. And the male sector just didn't get it.
What she said--and I will only draw a little bit here so try to follow me....she said she knows there are big problems in the US. REALLY big ones..... and they are only getting worse thanks to a retarded administration. NO ONE is stepping up to stop the chaos. That means none of our congressman or senators have the balls to stand up to Obamas admin. and say "What?? Are you INSANE??" The American public--as in those who did not vote for him or those who regret there decisions in November--are freaking out and trying to exact change with Tea parties and rally's and protests. Sarah, along with many others like myself, know that our efforts so far are falling on deaf ears. SOMETHING has to be done to start reversing what is going on in our country. SOOOOO.......Sarah realizes that she cannot be cloned....she wishes she could be but knows that someone with a brain has to stand up and lead us out of and away from the chaos and she is throwing herself in as that leader. She knows that if she remains as a labeled leader--her job description is written in stone. Govenor=take care of that state, ONLY. Congressman=take care of that jurisdiction, ONLY. If you are a "leader", of a non-dscript nature who can and wants to be the voice for the nation--then you are a Sarah Palin. Someone unique. Someone who can see the forest for the trees. Someone who can see the big picture and sees how she very well may be able to ramp up the revolution!
So what did I learn today? The true difference between men and women, is men are linear. They can only see what is in front of their face, or maybe a few feet ahead. But they can't see 4 steps forward, 2 steps to the left and one backwards....it's just too convoluted to comprehend. That is why women are soo damn good at multi-tasking. AND that is why what the USA needs is a strong, determined muti-tasking woman in office someday....we get things done.
She didn't quit--she delegated the task to the next, competent person--her Lt. Govenor. She said, "I have something even more pressing to do that only I can do and you are capable so I am handing over the reins of this state to you and I am going to go out there and fix this ridiculous mess".
Venus out.....
Now, this morning I listened to the different TV reports of what and why they thought she was going to step down. Every person had a different take on what she was doing. And they were all men. My favorite part--and this is where the light went on for me--was the male reporter who said he read her Facebook note to her supporters and the country. He said it didn't make sense that she would "quit" her job to answer to a higher calling. He said she didn't give any real answers....but yes, she did. But she didn't draw a picture. She said it the female way. And the male sector just didn't get it.
What she said--and I will only draw a little bit here so try to follow me....she said she knows there are big problems in the US. REALLY big ones..... and they are only getting worse thanks to a retarded administration. NO ONE is stepping up to stop the chaos. That means none of our congressman or senators have the balls to stand up to Obamas admin. and say "What?? Are you INSANE??" The American public--as in those who did not vote for him or those who regret there decisions in November--are freaking out and trying to exact change with Tea parties and rally's and protests. Sarah, along with many others like myself, know that our efforts so far are falling on deaf ears. SOMETHING has to be done to start reversing what is going on in our country. SOOOOO.......Sarah realizes that she cannot be cloned....she wishes she could be but knows that someone with a brain has to stand up and lead us out of and away from the chaos and she is throwing herself in as that leader. She knows that if she remains as a labeled leader--her job description is written in stone. Govenor=take care of that state, ONLY. Congressman=take care of that jurisdiction, ONLY. If you are a "leader", of a non-dscript nature who can and wants to be the voice for the nation--then you are a Sarah Palin. Someone unique. Someone who can see the forest for the trees. Someone who can see the big picture and sees how she very well may be able to ramp up the revolution!
So what did I learn today? The true difference between men and women, is men are linear. They can only see what is in front of their face, or maybe a few feet ahead. But they can't see 4 steps forward, 2 steps to the left and one backwards....it's just too convoluted to comprehend. That is why women are soo damn good at multi-tasking. AND that is why what the USA needs is a strong, determined muti-tasking woman in office someday....we get things done.
She didn't quit--she delegated the task to the next, competent person--her Lt. Govenor. She said, "I have something even more pressing to do that only I can do and you are capable so I am handing over the reins of this state to you and I am going to go out there and fix this ridiculous mess".
Venus out.....
Monday, June 22, 2009
Tossing the baby out with the water
Day No. 3286....they are here again....sprawled across my beautiful expensive couches with no regard to laying down of sheets or blankets--they use the pillows as haphazard coverings and drool on the one under their head. As I drink my coffee, holding back the urge to kick the back of the couch in order to wake them up and get them off of my couch, I watch in pain as the squirm and scrounge their bodies into the fabric. I know they are sweaty and all I can remember is my mother saying how body oils destroy fabric and I grimace.
Back on day no. 2509, I found Febreeze.....once they leave I joyfully spray all the couches vehemently. The dogs keep their distance as I forcefully pull the trigger over and over hoping that it will fix more than just the smell of dirty boys...I pretend it does in my mind.
Hunger wakes them up. I used to make breakfast for them but that seemed to encourage them to come over more; stay longer. They leave to find egg sandwiches---I want one too, but know that this will force them to return with it and that would defeat my purpose. Do they fold the blankets or fix the pillows that they have strewn around the couch and floor before they leave??....no.
Each day I threaten that this is the LAST time we are doing this......one of my sons agrees with me--or so I think. They reappear just as I head off to bed. I turn off the lights, lock 2 out of 3 doors. I think positive thoughts that tonight I will have a break and no one will be camped out on my furniture. They are waiting.....they know my routine. They pry open the window and unlock the door. They raid my refridgerator. They go to sleep on my couch with every possible light on and the TV running. My electric bill gets yet another hit.
Yesterday, my husband announced that 2 of our boys are moving out soon to be closer to college and their sister...Today I announced that I am giving them my 2 overly used and abused couches...he asked me where I was getting the money for that.....well, from the 500 a month I will save in electricity, I will buy less Febreeze and my food bill will drop by a cool 1000.00 a month....I kid you NOT.
Day No. 3342.....I can hear the beep beep beep from the Old Brick furniture truck backing up my drive....:)
Back on day no. 2509, I found Febreeze.....once they leave I joyfully spray all the couches vehemently. The dogs keep their distance as I forcefully pull the trigger over and over hoping that it will fix more than just the smell of dirty boys...I pretend it does in my mind.
Hunger wakes them up. I used to make breakfast for them but that seemed to encourage them to come over more; stay longer. They leave to find egg sandwiches---I want one too, but know that this will force them to return with it and that would defeat my purpose. Do they fold the blankets or fix the pillows that they have strewn around the couch and floor before they leave??....no.
Each day I threaten that this is the LAST time we are doing this......one of my sons agrees with me--or so I think. They reappear just as I head off to bed. I turn off the lights, lock 2 out of 3 doors. I think positive thoughts that tonight I will have a break and no one will be camped out on my furniture. They are waiting.....they know my routine. They pry open the window and unlock the door. They raid my refridgerator. They go to sleep on my couch with every possible light on and the TV running. My electric bill gets yet another hit.
Yesterday, my husband announced that 2 of our boys are moving out soon to be closer to college and their sister...Today I announced that I am giving them my 2 overly used and abused couches...he asked me where I was getting the money for that.....well, from the 500 a month I will save in electricity, I will buy less Febreeze and my food bill will drop by a cool 1000.00 a month....I kid you NOT.
Day No. 3342.....I can hear the beep beep beep from the Old Brick furniture truck backing up my drive....:)
Sunday, June 21, 2009
WHAT? Why?....
It's an intense title. Bert came up with it. I was shooting for things such as "Going out on a limb" and "Blunt opinions". After an hour, I got up and found him in the kitchen and asked him his opinion. He sat there smiling at me as I rattled off my ideas that even I wasn't terribly impressed with and he quickly--I mean in 3 seconds, quickly--says, Adopted and Unholy. I immediately checked to see if he was pulling my chain, but he wasn't. "Wow." I replied. "Your serious?" Of course he was. "It's been an issue for you all of your life even if you didn't want it to be."
Now here is the blunt part. Adoption is a good answer to a very unfortunate set of circumstances being that two people had sex and the outcome far from what they bargained for between the sheets. Do not believe for one second that this doesn't coat one's life (that life being the adoptee)in all kinds of weird ways.
Now as to the Unholy portion....that, I am far from being but some think differently. I've been a spiritual person all my life. But the issues have stemmed from what one considers to be spiritual. To define myself, I would say that I am Buddist, with a heavy dose of Wiccan beliefs who believes in a God/Goddess and knows there is an afterlife. BUT, I am NOT a born again Christian....herein is where the issue lies....and you know what? It just dawned on me that being a Christian (born again-whatever the hell that is supposed to really mean...) is becoming a PC way of life. If you say you are one, you are cleared on so many levels. You can do all kinds of things and God will just forgive and forget. You want to show someone what you are in one word--"I'm a Christian!" and its all good! But that I will never stoop to. And for that, I am not forgiven by many.....really makes you go "hmmmmm...." doesn't it?
More later......:)
Now here is the blunt part. Adoption is a good answer to a very unfortunate set of circumstances being that two people had sex and the outcome far from what they bargained for between the sheets. Do not believe for one second that this doesn't coat one's life (that life being the adoptee)in all kinds of weird ways.
Now as to the Unholy portion....that, I am far from being but some think differently. I've been a spiritual person all my life. But the issues have stemmed from what one considers to be spiritual. To define myself, I would say that I am Buddist, with a heavy dose of Wiccan beliefs who believes in a God/Goddess and knows there is an afterlife. BUT, I am NOT a born again Christian....herein is where the issue lies....and you know what? It just dawned on me that being a Christian (born again-whatever the hell that is supposed to really mean...) is becoming a PC way of life. If you say you are one, you are cleared on so many levels. You can do all kinds of things and God will just forgive and forget. You want to show someone what you are in one word--"I'm a Christian!" and its all good! But that I will never stoop to. And for that, I am not forgiven by many.....really makes you go "hmmmmm...." doesn't it?
More later......:)
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